9 May 2009
Its been like how many months since i last posted.Okay so everything has been going well so far.I think my blog is REALLY dead.
Been quite busy with school.Studying at TPJC.Khalid is in ITE.Well, he has never really gotten good results anyway.And he doesn't seem to care.
I'm really worried about Mich.Shes really too stressed up now.Its probably the stress of being in a thriple science class.Shes afraid of losing.But she never used to be like tat.
I'm afraid she might just break down one day.But i talked to her last nite.I told her about who she used to be.I really hope she will think it through, and then go back to being who she was before.Happy, smiling, carefree.
I really miss her laughter.Its been a really long time, since i last saw a genuine smile on her face.Theres always a tightness in her smile nowadays, it never used to be there.
And Syafiq isn't really having the best time right now.He and Khalid don't mix anymore.God, and Ainnah is stuck between the two of them.Can't imagine how it feels like.
Everything seems to be changing right now.I don't know how, or why, but somehow, it just feels like everything is falling apart.Like the friendship, between all of us who grew up together, is going to break apart soon.
I'm really tired of trying to hold everyone together.Trying to keep the peace, trying to make everyone happy.
The only joy i get is seeing Mich.Talking to her on the phone, tutoring her, and most of all hearing her laugh.That is like so rare now.
Really hope her Mid year exams will be over soon.Then i could spend more time with her.She really needs to relax.
Besides her stress, i know part of her unhappiness is because of HIM.I know hes still a shadow thats following her.I know she still can't put him down completely.But why?
Why Mich?Does he really mean so much to you?