12 Nov 08
Wednesday.Bright morning with lotta sunshine.The kind Mich loves.
So...walked Mich home yesterday.She just finished her guzheng practice.Met her at T-mart then walked home wit her.Shocker.
She went home to change her clothes while i waited in the void deck.Saw Fiqal and Zul.The two bastards.
But cos Nabilah was there, i didnt shout vulgar words at them or things like tat.Jus kept quiet.Mich wld be upset as well if i started arguing wit them.=(
But then, she was unusually quiet yesterday.Normally, if she sees Fiqal, she would pretend not to see him and jus start blabbering and joking wit me.
But she didnt yesterday.Ok, tat is NOT NORMAL.Like the calm before the storm??
I didnt say anyting either.
But her eyes gave her away.
How many times must she pretend to be ignorant when in fact, shes hurting inside??I mean, come on, Fiqal was RIGHT THERE, 2m away from her.And they didnt even smile at each other.I cant even imagine wad it feels like.
The way she looked when she saw him.The way she pretended not to care.The way shes always thinking of others before doing something.
I asked her right then to be my girlfriend.
She kind of indirectly rejected me.But at least it isnt rejecting yet.
She thought it was kind of impossible.
Said tat her kind of boyfriend mus know her well, so, she asked me to list out 100 tings about her tat most people dont know.
Michelle, i know u still believe tat deres still hope between u and Fiqal, but i wont give up.I WILL list out these 100 tings.
I want u to know tat i know u as well as Fiqal, and i will be much better than him.